clueless, very very clueless;

I have no idea what I want in life. I'm confused and very sick about it. I'm moving, but going nowhere. In circles I go, and I find myself back where I've started off. Or rather, I'm lost in a maze, unable to find my way out. Whichever route I take, it just looks the same as before. And I'm starting to panic, beginning to feel it fluttering away; hope.

I need a breakthrough. I need a new breath of air. I need to know my niche; what I'm good at, and what I enjoy doing. I'm sick and tired of doing things like a blind man, like there's a veil shrouded over my vision; I dont know what I'm doing, and why I'm doing what I'm doing. I'm beginning to lose my sense of purpose. And its making me jaded, causing me to feel so inadequate about myself.

I dont want to be another burden to society; dont want to be a parasite sucking off the limited resources of Mother Earth. I know I'm meant for something greater, that I have a larger destiny than what I have now.

I. just. need. to. find. it.

And not give up even when my head tells me too.

God, please help me.

turtle,
19nov2010 10:37pm